I am a self-defined & peer acknowledged perfectionist. It can be paralyzing at times & my Mommy coined me as having ‘perfection paralysis’. It’s something I’ve had for ever – as long as i can remember. There has been no defining moment that i am aware of that set me on this path & my parents certainly did not drill perfection into me – not even almost.
It’s just something ive got.
For the most part it’s something i can deal with. It can cause anxiety, procrastination and a lot of self doubt – but i eventually ‘get there’ and get whatever it is done and to the best of my ability.
& sometimes my ability is awesome.
Motherhood for me has been a whole new beast as far as the ‘perfectionism’ goes. I NEVER expect ‘perfection‘ from anyone else. Only that they do/try their best with what they have at the time. Nothing more then they can give.
For some reason I hold myself (& i know this in my head) to an unrealistic standard. Especially noticeable when it comes to certain aspects of parenting /motherhood /raising children. Things that when I think about it realistically really are/were ‘out of my control’ or I didnt know better at the time & yet i let the guilt eat at me.
is my fault… but it’s not…
It is not always in the front of my mind – stopping me from functioning or anything but it pops up at times – the nagging in the back of your brain wishing you could have just done that much more or knew this much more – how that would change whatever those tiny struggles are.
Is this something that you struggle with too? Any tips or ways you cope with the random creep-up-of-guilt?
:: How do you find that confidence that your awesome truly is awesome enough? ::
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