I have had a difficult week. Well, really a difficult 2 weeks. I have hurt, I have cried and I have learned a lot.
It all started with this.
& it felt like it got worse from there.
I was overcome with anxiety, with sadness and felt alone.
I still feel kind of alone.
By nature I am stoic, not outwardly emotional, and historically I am the one people talk to when they need an ear.
I am a good listener.
What I have realized though is I am not really the best talker.
& that makes me feel even more alone.
What I learned is that there seems to be a downside of always being Strong.
No one seems to expect you to Break.
I don’t know what to do with the sad. I don’t know where to turn to when I can’t rationalize my emotions. & my voice feels a bit silenced because I am ‘supposed to be strong‘.
But that is something I am trying to change. I am not always happy, I am not always perfect & trying to learn that sometimes being strong is showing these feelings [even when everything in you is telling you to 'suck it up' & that no one wants to hear you 'complain'].Share This Post: Tweet