I have had 10 miscarriages – saying that is hard for me. For so long I have just tried to sweep it under the rug – once my number became larger then 3 I just became numb to it all. I am not really an emotional person, but this topic always brings up emotions as if it all happened yesterday. I have been through 10 miscarriages in 6 years. I am 28 years old – I have been pregnant 13 times – and have 3 living children.
I can be a very private person, but I think miscarriage and infertility have enough secrecy surrounding it that I do not want to perpetuate it. The more it is talked about – the more women and families can feel supported and listened to and important – not embarrassed and ashamed like I am struggling to not feel. I am opening up the door to talk about it - so here is my long story :
My first two miscarriages were kind of a blur to me. We were not trying to get pregnant and basically found out we were expecting the same time we realized we were miscarrying. I had always heard that having one miscarriage was ‘normal’ and so honestly didn’t put too much thought into it. They were still very painful and devastating to me but I thought once we were actively trying everything would be ok – that no one would have more then 2.
My husband and I decided to start trying for a family and we actively began trying to conceive using basal body temping as a guide. We became pregnant again in November2004 the first month of trying. I was about 6 weeks pregnant just around Christmas time when I miscarried (#3). This time it hit me –hard. I mean I have never heard of someone who has had 3 miscarriages ever – let alone in a row.
Basal Body Temperature Chart
I began feverishly doing my research. With my basal body charts I had noticed that my luteal phase was under 10 days (according to research the shortest it should be for a successful pregnancy) so I began to take vitamins B6 and B12 to lengthen it. I went to the doctor and his thought was that my progesterone was low and that is why I was not able to hold on to the pregnancy past 6 weeks. So a new plan evolved. I would stay on the vitamins and go on a progesterone supplement the moment I found out I was pregnant. This made the basal body temping so important – I needed to know the exact date.
We began another month of trying to conceive. Thermometer in hand and a plan in mind we became pregnant again in June and I was on the progesterone medication. The plan was to stay on until 12 weeks pregnant and then to slowly wean myself off. When 12 weeks came along we lowered the dose of progesterone but I began to bleed so we quickly went back onto the medication. The baby was doing fine and the new plan was to wean off at 20 weeks. 20 weeks came and I was successfully weaned off with no further complications. I had my first full term baby (Big P) in December 2005– a healthy boy.
My husband and I had always wanted to have our kids close in age so we starting TTC again relatively quickly. I began the basal body temping again and got pregnant pretty quickly. When I got the positive I went to the doctor to get a prescription for the progesterone and started taking it again. I miscarried shortly after 7 weeks (#4) . My doctor and I both thought i twas because the progesterone was not started soon enough so I was given a prescription for the next time to begin the day I had a positive test. I got pregnant again and started the progesterone but miscarried at 6 weeks 5 days (#5) and I was starting to loose hope. I went back on the vitamins and we began TTC again. Thinking back it probably would have been better to give myself a few months to heal physically and emotionally but I was determined and had the ok from my doctor.
In July 2006 we got pregnant again and everything was going smoothly. I was on the progesterone and we had an ultrasound that showed the heartbeat and the baby was growing. I was on bed rest again for the first 20 weeks and was weaned off the progesterone at 20 weeks. Everything was going smoothly. At 8 months pregnant I awoke with vertigo – fell and cracked my wrist. I was taken to the hospital and without going into too much detail I was diagnosed with possible stroke and they ran a large amount of test sand I was hospitalized.
In one of those tests they discovered I had a blood disorder called Factor V Leiden. Everything was going relatively smoothly with the pregnancy. I was having some weigh issues – having only gained 10lbs and was 8 months pregnant they were checking to see if the baby was growing -which she was. I was being induced just over 2 weeks early because of the vertigo and possible stroke. Our healthy baby girl (Princess R) was born in February 2007.
I had 2 more miscarriages (#6 & 7) & these losses were quite painful.
In May 2007 I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease and was on a strict gluten free diet. We had wondered if that underlying cause was also contributing to the miscarriages and we’re hopeful that was the answer. I still had the constant vertigo that started in January 2007 and was seeing a neurologist for possible causes. During one of our meetings she mentioned Factor V Leiden again. That was the first time I had heard of it since back when I was pregnant with Princess R. The neurologist thought that could be the cause of my possible stroke when I was pregnant. I was sent to other specialists for that.
My husband and I were ready to expand our family again. I went off birth control in the beginning December 2007 and we began TTC again. I became pregnant the first month but lost miscarriage at just over 5 weeks (#8). We didn’t take any breaks between that loss and trying to conceive again and we became pregnant again the next cycle at the beginning of January.
I was back on the progesterone and everything was seemingly going okay – baby was perfect. We had made it past 8 weeks of pregnancy and thought everything was going to go smoothly. We had told extended family and friends and had begun taking daily photos of my growing belly – our kids were excited.
Big P and Princess R telling the family about the growing baby
A phone call came to me a few weeks later that shattered me. The baby (Triton) that had made it to 13 weeks was “no longer viable” and he had passed away (#9). I was confused – I had done everything ‘right’ – I was on the progesterone, was on bed rest – everything. I was scheduled for a D&C because I did not want to deliver at home.
The OB who was going to be doing the surgery turned out to be a lifesaver to me. Another miracle that Triton brought into my life. My OB had read over my chart, talked to me for a long time about my history and pegged that I had been diagnosed with Factor V Leiden, a blood disorder that predisposes me to making blood clots.
The surgery was scheduled for April 24,2008 and I was able to get the answer I needed. When the pathology came back it showed blood clots caught in the umbilical cord cutting off the supply to Triton. He had given me the answer and we had a new plan and a concrete diagnoses for all my losses – Factor V Leiden.
Recovering from surgery my husband and I were not trying to conceive yet. I did become pregnant (some medical studies show you are most fertile after a loss) the next month but miscarried again (#10) likely because I was not healed up completely from the surgery. We were both ready to start the process of adding to our family and met up with my OB again.
The new plan – because Factor V Leiden predisposes me to throwing blood clots normally and any pregnant woman’s risk of blood clots increase anyway – my chances were pretty high. This is the reason for my miscarriages, my possible stroke at 8 months pregnant – but luckily there was something we could do. I was still going to be on the progesterone for 20 weeks because I did have an issue with low progesterone – it was just not the whole story.
I continued with the basal body temping and this time added low dose aspirin (it’s a blood thinner). Once I got that positive pregnancy test – I went on the progesterone and was put on another medication called Fragmin. This medication is a needle that I inject into my lower abdomen – it is a blood thinner that is safe to take while pregnant. This medication was designed to thin my blood enough to stop me from making clots and putting me and baby at risk for miscarriage or still birth.
Fragmin – blood thinner injection I used daily for 42wks
I injected myself with this needle every day – I was covered in bruises but everything was working. It became second nature to me. Since it is not safe to go into labor while on blood thinners I was placed on bed rest at 36 weeks because I had begun to dilate. The plan was to induce me again just over 2weeks early – I had to be off the blood thinner to deliver but could not go over 12 hours without the medication or I would risk another stroke. So, the safest thing to do was a planned early induction.
In February 2009 our third full term baby (Babe E) was born perfect and healthy. I was put back on the Fragmin blood thinners and had to continue giving myself the injections for 8 weeks postpartum.
It has been a very difficult and extremely painful journey. It has taken me a long time (and I am still working on it) to accept what has happened and to begin to digest it all.
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Edited to add:
Thank you everyone for all your amazing support & your kind words. I want to let you all know that i have started a new GROUP SITE for survivors of perinatal grief (miscarriage, stillbirth & neonatal loss) so we can open this topic up and support each other. If you have a story you want to share or grief you need to get off your chest please head over and help break the stigma of perinatal loss and perinatal grief.
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I don't have a question, just wanted to comment and say Thank you for sharing, I'm sure this post wasn't easy and brings up a lot of emotions. You have 10 angels watching over you and your family and that is very special! Thanks again.
Thanks for sharing this. I'm glad that because of you and several other bloggers, infertility and miscarriages are not being so taboo anymore. I think this is a great movement for women. Thanks for sharing again!
Hugs.
I can't even imagine what you have gone through. It was very brave of you to share your story.
Thanks for your courage in sharing all of this. Voices like yours make us all feel less alone.
I wanted to also commend you for sharing this with us…I think so many women struggle with infertility feel like it's a dark secret that can't be talked about…so kudos to you for putting it out there….your children are beautiful…and I admire your strength! Smooches!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have had two miscarriages and the only people who know are my husband and one family member. It's not something people openly talk about and it helps to hear there is hope and people who also go through it. I'm sorry for all the pain you have had to go through. Thanks again.
You are so much stronger than I ever could be. I've only had one miscarriage, at 6 weeks, due to low progesterone but it has forever made me fear TTC again. I lived in fear during my pregnancy with Mason & it took daily affirmations just to get me by. It's hard to talk about- especially in real life. I've noticed that bringing up my 1st pregnancy always makes the conversation awkward. It shouldn't be that way & women need to be more open about something that is so devastating to a woman. We need to talk about it!
THank you for posting this. ((hugs)) for everything you've been through.
You are amazing! You remind me of a dear friend of mine who had a similar blood clotting issue. I love that you stayed the course. Don't be ashamed or embarrased by this part of your story. You're a beacon to other women who want so despirately to be a mom. We tried to get pg for years, even tried IVF and couldn't. We eventually got pregnant and I have three beautiful children, but it was an extremely stressful and uncertain process. Just know that you're not alone and that we all thank you for your honesty and voice! xoxo
Thank you for sharing this. I can't imagine how painful this is for you. It's amazing to me how many women have had miscarriages. In a small mom's group of seven women, six of us have, including me (I had one).
I have a friend who's been TTC for 16 months and her journey is heartbreaking. Infertility is such a scary, frustrating and horrible thing.
I'm glad you have some answers – your children are beautiful. Hugs to you..
If you have a moment, I posted my friend's struggle on my blog: http://specialsauceinthehouse.blogspot.com/2010/04/national-infertility-awareness-week-my.html
Devan, Thanks for sharing! I agree with you this should be an open topic where people can share and communicate together. You do have 10 little angels. Thinking about you and hope you will continue to share your story.
Thanks for sharing your story. I have had two miscarriages. I can't imagine what you have been through with ten. (((Hugs)))
I just had a miscarriage on Monday and have been scouring the internet for stories and comfort. This is my first and the first time my husband and I have tried to conceive. I was at 12 weeks, all our friends and family knew, and we already had names picked out.
Once we told people what had happened we started hearing other's stories of their own miscarriages. It is incredible how many women go through this and I was left wondering why no one ever talks about it.
I am amazed by your story – I can't begin to imagine going through this 10 times over… Thank you for telling your story and I hope it encourages more women to be open about miscarriages, infertility, and baby loss. Feeling like you're not alone helps.
Thank you so much for sharing!! It isn't talked about enough, and people need to know that it isn't taboo and women grieve and talk differently about their losses.
Thank you again, and I am so sorry that this is what you went through for your children.
Thank you so much for sharing your story! What a heartbreaking, trying journey you have had. I think it's important to share. It really helps those who have had losses feel a little less alone. (((HUGS)))
I am so sorry this happened to you. I think you opening up about this is absolutely wonderful.
Hugs.
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I "only" had one, but suffered from severe pre-eclampsia in my second pregnancy and nearly stroked out from an episode of extreme high blood pressure. My son was born healthy and well, but my two pregnancy experiences have put me off to trying again.
Thank you again for sharing. You have a beautiful family and by the way, I've never seen anyone look as good as you after delivering a child. Wow! Great pic!
I'm so glad you wrote this post.
I've only miscarried twice – both early, and they think my issue is progesterone/short LPs also. I tested negative for Factor V, but just to be safe, the RE put me on baby aspirin. Somehow, I managed to have the most perfect, beautiful, healthy son… I still don't know how. I was convinced for 9 months that the other shoe was going to drop.
Now we are in the process of trying again and the fear of miscarriage haunts me all the time. Reading this has helped – if you can make it through 10 losses, hell, what am I complaining about? You are so strong. I really admire you.
Thanks for being so candid about an issue that most people are scared to talk about.
I'm so sorry
One miscarriage is painful. Just ONE. I can't imagine ten. You are lucky that you managed to have three healthy children, but that does not diminish the pain of the others. I couldn't even bear it, how heartbreaking!
A woman I know had miscarriage year and year after year. She never had children. She once made it to eight months before the baby was stillborn, and I still have nightmares about her horrible journey and she tried to become a mother. I agree that we need to talk about these things and help eachother. She was a private person, but I sometimes wonder if she had spoken to other women about it, or gotten a second opinion (she stayed with her one doc, who put her on bedrest at 4 months, and she never went seeking for possible alternatives, such as hormone meds) things would have been different.
Sometimes in our pain, or our fear of having others know our secrets, we hurt ourselves (who knows who has the answer if we could just open up?).
Thank you for this wonderful post.
You are so brave. Wonderful story.
mary
Thanks for writing this. I have a friend who has gone through several losses and she is very open about her struggle to carry her children to term. Women like her and like you are very brave in sharing your story. Pain from loss should never be kept a secret. When it is put in the open not only does it create awareness but it becomes the tie that connects us all whether through loss or through the desire for a child.
God bless you and your little ones.
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I;m so sorry you have had to go through so much. I guess that makes your 3 little ones even more special to you. I can't even begin to imagine what that feels like.
You are one strong woman!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. As I said a couple of weeks ago – I am in awe of you. I can not even imagine this – the thought is just crippling to me! My mom had 4 miscarriages before me and I was 2.5 months premature so she stopped trying after me and I am her only child. My cousin (on my mom's side) lost her first baby at 6 months pregnant and almost lost her second at the same point – but thankfully doctors discovered the problem and was able to save her baby and now she is pregnant with her third child, due this October, and everything is going well. So even though I haven't had a miscarriage I know that it can happen to anyone, even with prior "no complication" pregnancies. This is a subject every woman can identify with in some way and so I think your story can be used for the positive for a lot of people. And by the way, thanks so much for the nice comment on my anniversary photos!
All I can say is wow. You are an incredible woman for sharing your brave story. I know what the loss of 1 baby did for me and the pain is something I still carry even 4 years later. I really applaud your honesty and candor because you're so right, the more we talk about this the better. Right now a mother is devastated by her loss and she needs to know that we are all here as survivors and mothers to those we lost and those we have the blessing to hold. God bless you.
Thank you all so much for your kind words of support and for sharing your stories with me. I am in awe of all of you and truly thank you from the bottom of my heart ♥
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is so hard to tell people the bad stuff, but the only way we can learn from each other is to share. I know this was hard, but I really appreciate you sharing and your children are absolutely beautiful!
I can very much relate to your story. I have Factor V Leiden and Protein C deficiency-both blood clotting disorders. I was on Lovenox during my pregnancy and developed a blood clot in my leg 6 weeks postpartum and am now on a lifetime of warfarin. I have 4 other family members who have had blood clots also. It is a terrible thing to have to go through so much sorrow before a definitive diagnosis can be found for the miscarriages. Thank you for sharing your story. It gives me comfor that other women deal with what I have had to deal with too. Take care.
Found your story while surfing the internet I had one daughter in 2007 perfect pregnancy I since have had 4 miscarriages this last baby died at 10 weeks and I am waiting on my d@c I am so scared I will never have another baby I am going to start the RPL blOOD work when my levels are down to 0 thanks for sharing your story it gives me hope.
Hi, your story is really sad, but still ends with the happyend in a way – you have three beautiful children that for sure help you to get through this big pain every day. Since not many women really talk about their miscarriages, I feel like I´m the only one in the world with this problem. I also had 10 miscarriages in 12yrs time, twice with twins… Right now, I´m going throug the "last" one.. I feel so empty again.. Even though I have my family arroud me, I feel like abandoned on the lonely island with all my pain.. I am so glad you had the chance to deliver your 3 babies. It never happend to me.. I also had similar medication like you, but it didn´t help.. Still with my hubby we have addopted our beautiful sunshine, son A. who´s nearly 4yrs now, so the look at him always gives me the strenght and inner power to go on.. even though sometimes I ask myself if I´m crazy to ttc again.. I really might stop now and enjoy my son instead of going through the same pain over and over again.. But who knows, what happens with my brain again after the biggest pain is "over".. Maybe….
Again, I´m so glad (please don´t get me wrong) there is someone in the world with the simillar problem like me. Sending you ((hugs)) and hope this will never happen to you/me/noone again. Take care! JK
i am so glad you shared this story on the faces of loss site. i share your passion for encouraging women to speak up about loss. thank you for sharing yourself. blessings to you and the three you got to keep!!
Hey, it's so wonderful you have shared your story about this here on your blog. I only just found you via LindsayBlogs.com and the one liner of "10 miscarriages" piqued my interest. It's rare for me to hear of anyone being in double figures with their losses like me.
I have had 14 pregnancies but we have one live child to show for them. They've occurred over 10 yrs, I average about 2-3 a year plus managed two live births in there somewhere. Our precious firstborn (who came after 4 m/c's), Ellanor, passed away after just four weeks – completely unrelated to the causes of my m/c's! Talk about "coincidence"… So I've written a book. I refuse to sweep it under the rug and feel compelled to share what I've learned, just as you are doing here.
Marvellous. Thank you so much for your expression of this most painful topic. The injections alone would have done me in (I only had to take Clexane during one pregnancy… it didn't help, but how I remember those needles!).
Thank you. I have felt SO alone and lost on my own path….I have lost 2 babies in a row, diagnosed with low progesterone with the first, and when we lost the second they discovered I have FVL. I had no idea I could love something instantly, and how much grief I would contniue to feel. There are times where I just sit and cry still.
We are now trying again and I am scared. So scared. I take progesterone 2x day starting at ovulation, Clomid (not sure why they prescribed this …), and will take heparin shots once pregnant again. I fear my stress is preventing me from becoming pregnant again, but I am not sure how to relax about my concerns…and no one around me seems to know what to say or how to comfort, including my poor husband. Thank you for sharing your story, it helps to know I am not alone.
I lost my first baby at 26 weeks and later was diagnosed with Protein S deficiency (similar to Factor V Leiden, it predisposes you to blood clots). I used Fragmin for my 2 subsequent pregnancies and had two healthy babies that are now 10 and 7. My hematologist is a hero
Thank you for sharing your story – infant loss is not talked about enough. I am sure you will help many people.
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! Thank you from the bottom of my heart, for sharing your story with us all! I am 25 years old, have one happy healthy baby whos 3yrs 7 months, but I have miscarried 15 times. I had a baby at 16 (not proud of that one), who has born at 6 months gestation, and had severe heart and lung issues. She had open heart surgery 10 times in 2 1/2 years. She died Christmas day 2003, at just over 2 1/2 years, during open heart surgery. Subsequently, in the last 7 1/2 years I have been with my hubby, I have had 15 miscarriages and only ONE happy healthy baby. I also had 3 still borns, not included in the miscarriages! We have not succeeded in having anymore and due to conditions with my uterus among many other things, have had to stop trying for more. We’re just blessed to have one with us now!
It’s good to know there are people out there, who have been through it, that no my pain and that I am not in this alone! Thank you so much for sharing your story.
i would just like to say, reading your story is just like opening the same chapter in my life, i have also like you been pregnant 13 times, i have 3 living children and have had 10 awful miscarriages, i had my first pregnancy with no problems whatsoever, then my second pregnancy ended in loss, then my third pregnancy went well with no problems, then i went on to have a further 7 pregnancy,s end in miscarriage, then i was pregnant for the 11th time then i started to bleed at around 8 weeks i just thought it was going to be another loss but my little angel hung on in there and was born on his due date, a few years later me and my partner decided it was time to try again and there i was pregnant for the 12th time but it all ended again 8 weeks in to the pregnancy, then i thought i would give it 1 last attempt and there i was pregnant for my 13th time, sadly it ended in miscarriage a couple of days ago, i got to 10weeks but had a scan and the baby died at 8 weeks, my heart just feels so shattered and broken and i don,t think i could even bring myself to try again, the pain of it all is just to much to take,
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February 7, 2011 at 4:25 pm
I just read your story. All I can say is wow you are amazing. You are going to change lives with what you are doing.
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Thank you for sharing your story. My daughter-in-law found out she has FactorV Leiden after her baby had to be delivered by emergency c-section at 36 weeks (the baby had stopped growing at 30 weeks but her first doctor didn’t catch it). Baby Rose was 3 lbs, 6 oz and in NICU for a few weeks but she was fully developed so other than being tiny there hasn’t been any complications. We are thankful for our second doctor who caught the lack of growth in the first visit and delivered a healthy baby…she wouldn’t have made it another week. My own miscarriages(two) were back in the day when they weren’t talked about much.
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February 25, 2011 at 1:37 pm
Thank you everyone for all your amazing support & your kind words. I want to let you all know that i have started a new GROUP SITE for survivors of perinatal grief (miscarriage, stillbirth & neonatal loss) so we can open this topic up and support each other.
UnspokenGrief™ | Understanding & support for perinatal grief
http://unspokengrief.com
HUGS everyone ♥
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I had 2 miscarriages (1 at 12 weeks, baby had passed around 8 weeks apparently) and went on to have my son who is now 26-months. It’s so important to be open and willing to help other woman in the same situation. As we begin trying for another baby, I can’t help but wonder if I have an underlying issue and will lose more. Thanks for this though, really. It may be a huge blessing to me if I have more miscarriages in the future!
I can only imagine how emotionally devastating your losses have been. I am absolutely stunned at your bravery and tenacity. I’m not sure I would have been able to keep the faith for as long as you did. I’m sending love to your 10 angel babies and to your 3 living miracles!
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March 29, 2011 at 11:25 pm
This is an incredible story – you sound so brave and determined. I love that you’ve shared it openly and are now supporting others.
I have a friend who was diagnosed with Factor V Leiden and I was there when she started bleeding, which led to that diagnosis. Luckily baby was ok, but it’s nerve wracking worrying about someone with such a tricky condition.
Much love to you.
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May 17, 2011 at 6:01 pm
I think its awesome that you post about such personal experiences. I think that it helps other women going through something similar to deal with the grief of losing an unborn baby. Great post!
While our numbers (11 pregnancies, 3 living children for me) vary slightly and the cause of our clotting disorders vary, our paths have been so very similar. I am so very sorry you had to go through so much.
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It is great to read positive stories like yours. I have just had my 10th miscarriage and have not had any succesful pg’s at all. I am seeing a recurrent miscarriage specialist but I am starting to lose hope. Hopefully I will get my happy ending one day.
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October 6, 2011 at 5:43 pm
I am so sorry for all you have been through Sarah. Sending much love your way & know you can find support here or at http://UnspokenGrief.com . I am hoping with everything that you get your happy ending. xxo
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November 9, 2011 at 12:06 pm
Thank you so much for sharing this. It brought me to tears! I am so sorry for your losses. My thoughts and prayers are with you!
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I am so sorry for all that you have gone through. RPL is just an awful, awful thing to have to endure. I’m so glad that your injections led to a healthy baby!
Hopefully, treatment with injections for RPL and Factor V when pg becomes the standard, although I’m afraid it won’t be. I had to go to three doctors to get the injections and my beloved RE was resistant, citing a new study from late 2010 that showed it didn’t make a difference in pregnancy outcomes. I know too many women with stories like ours for that to be true.
I am so happy you posted this information…I know that this is hard to talk about well I say that but I have had 11 miscarriages now and am now do not feel a thing until randomly in the bathtub out of nowhere. I can’t thank you enough for posting your comments because we are going to try again but I am starting to lose my faith, not faith but faith in pregnancy. I continuously get pregnant and lose is after six weeks everytime. They have told me that my progesterone naturally is low, have increased my folic acid, I’m now on thyroid meds too and I will take progesterone when I get pregnant again so we are going to try it again but I am slowly losing my confindence but I’m hanging in there and this actually reassured me so as painful as it may have been or not been for you but thank you.
thank you for sharing.. i understand your pain.. i have the same problem,, factor v , i have now 10 miscarriges.. no successful pregnancies.. it is so hard to me i didnt know what i have to do, i was tried evrey thing and it doesnt work with me… fragmen aspirin steroids progestrone all vitamins it doesnt work with me, it is very painfull to me because i fell that i cant reserve my baby..
I to am currently on my 10th miscarriage. I was dealing with everything pretty well till today. I have 2 healthy children, 11years, and 21months. My 10 losses have all happened within 19 months. We where pregnant unexpectedly after my son was born in 2010 and have been actively trying ever since. My longest pregnacy the last 19 months got to 10 weeks before I lost that babe. 3 months after the loss at 10 weeks, I lost another at 6 weeks. The rest of my miscarriages happen in the 4th week, basically I find out im pregnant and miscarry days later. I to have started speaking of what has happened to me, and it has helped me heal some from all the emotions that keep building up month after month.
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