Finding the Light Through Infertility

I got a call from my doctor earlier this week. He was calling to give me the results of my progesterone blood test I had taken last week. The purpose, to see if Clomid actually worked and ovulation happened.

After the first two months of the lowest dose of Clomid, I had my fingers tightly crossed that it at least worked and pregnancy could happen. The side effects of the drug were not being kind to me and it was making me feel like I was going to lose my mind.

I am not what I would consider a moody person normally, but Clomid makes my patience like non-existent and I feel even crazier. I was one of the peeps who got the bad hot flashes and the headaches every night as well too.

I am still basal body temping and while I knew what I saw, I wondered if the results of the blood test would show the same thing.

I likely didn’t ovulate according to my progesterone results and that’s what my chart has shown too. There is a chance that I ovulated later than I should have, but that’s not ideal while on Clomid either. I have to be honest — I am pretty straight up bummed about it. I was hopeful that the lower dose would work and we’d be on our way to another child by now.

My dose has been doubled for this next cycle (if we’re not pregnant) and with that I am hoping the side effects won’t be doubled as well. I am having a hard time staying positive through all this. I know that there are many of you who have experience walking through infertility and I understand my year long try is not as long as others. It’s hard  not to think about the timing and if everything had gone as I wanted, we would have a newborn in our life already and getting excited for the holidays.

If you have any advice on how to stay positive through infertility or tips for surviving the Clomid side effects, I would be thankful!

You should also read: The Cruel Waiting Game of Infertility

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