Okay, well I may be a bit dramatic right now, the truth is I won’t know what’s going on until tomorrow, at least…. but you can tell what I am under a wee bit of stress here.
I have been trying to make baby #4 for 8 months now and have been using the same basal body method’s I’ve used in the past. I have been charting since removing my birth control over a year ago and one thing became glaringly apparent to me.
I don’t seem to be ovulation, which if you know anything about the whole baby-making process, it’s kind of important. Looking at my charts, I have ovulated a few times, gotten pregnant once, miscarried and have yet to see any sort of regular cycle. In the past, I’ve not had any issues getting pregnant, but staying pregnant was our struggle. I know that in the long scheme of things 8-months is not a long time and typically not anything to worry about, yet — but with my history, I didn’t want to wait and wait to lose and start again.
So, off to the doctor we went.
I saw our family doctor 2 weeks ago and she ordered some blood tests (and by some, I mean a surprising amount of blood was taken from my arm) and an ultrasound to check for cysts and to generally see if my inner lady-bits were in order. I had all that stuff done last week and tomorrow, I head to my OB/GYN to find out the results, if there was anything that showed up as an indication on why it doesn’t seem I am ovulating and to come up with some sort of plan.
I wasn’t anticipating this — at all. I knew we would struggle with the fears and anxieties of more loss, but never thought we would have trouble getting pregnant. I worry that it’s my age that is slowing things down. I am only 30-years old, but it has been almost 4 years since I’ve had a baby and as I know, fertility starts to really drop at 30-years old.
I am not going to lie, I am kind of nervous. I am nervous the tests showed something, I am nervous they didn’t show anything, I am nervous about how long this will take, and I am nervous about being unsure about how far I want to take this.
I feel kind of like a fish out of water here … and old!
:: Did you have troubles with ovulation or needing fertility treatment? I would love to hear your stories! ::
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