Perinatal Grief

Perinatal Grief

Grief is Not a Competition & Stigma Still Exists

30.09.2011
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Two weeks ago I started writing for Babble’s Being Pregnant blog. I was brought on to share my experience with perinatal grief, miscarriage and loss and because my husband and I are in serious debate over adding to our family – another child.  I am thrilled to be able to write our experience and help [...]

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Perinatal Grief

No One Is Perfect & It’s Okay To Break

29.09.2011
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I have had a difficult week.  Well, really a difficult 2 weeks. I have hurt, I have cried and I have learned a lot. It all started with this. & it felt like it got worse from there. I was overcome with anxiety, with sadness and felt alone. I still feel kind of alone. By [...]

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Motherhood

All Stress & No Sleep Makes Devan Go …

27.07.2011
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These past 7-10 days have felt like I am living in some kind of weird parallel universe.  I am not feeling like myself and my schedule is all out of whack.  I am not sleeping, im not eating & i am spending way too much time stressing for ‘no reason’. Insomnia has been keeping me company this [...]

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Miscarriage

My Eyes Are Begging to Sleep; An Atypical Birth Story

24.04.2011

The alarm buzzes. I struggle to wake. My eyes are stinging; begging to go back to sleep. I want this day to be over. I’m not ready. It’s not fair; This can’t be happening. I feel a hand on my back; rubbing for comfort. My husband is awake. My body goes through the motions of [...]

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Letters for Triton

Letter To Triton: Three Years Ago Today.

02.03.2011

Triton: Three years ago today I saw two beautiful lines on that pregnancy test.  2 lines that let me know that you were on your way. I was so excited. Thrilled. It was after a string of 4 miscarriages & i had such hope for you.  Your Daddy was excited & we were excited to [...]

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Miscarriage

Launched: Introducing My New Project Unspoken Grief ™

07.02.2011

Friends I can not even begin to explain to you how excited I am to finally share this with you all. Not only because I am horrible at keeping ‘secrets’ but because this project has been a dream of mine forever. & it is finally here. & ready. Let me introduce you to my new “baby” [...]

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Miscarriage

An Unexplained Panic

04.01.2011

I can not shake it.  It creeps up out of no where.  No explanation and no escape. No rhyme or reason. This feeling. This panic. Everything is calm one moment. I am sitting with my three children playing around me – happy and healthy. Perfect. I feel my heart racing. My breathing gets quicker. Someone [...]

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Miscarriage

Miscarriage & Triggers: When Your Body Is A Trigger

30.11.2010

Grief is a very strange journey and process.  Some days I find myself in the best mood – happy and cheerful and then without warning can be smacked in the face with sadness and tears.  Sometimes it happens without warning and one thing I have learned through these 10 miscarriages is that is okay. It [...]

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Letters for Triton

A Letter For Triton: You Should Be Two Today

09.11.2010

  November 9, 2010 – Today is a tough day for me babe.  A date that for others really has no meaning, but for me it is a pain spot and will be for who knows how long – maybe forever.  Two years ago today was your due date. If you were still with me [...]

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