I wish i had something profound to say today. Something that could help me feel better and help give others a glimpse into what is going on in my head and heart today. It’s a mix of what I am feeling, what I perceive other’s think I should be feeling and numbness all at the same time. I kind of have no words other then today kind of sucks.
In focusing on the happy today I am going to be kind to me. Something I should really do more often anyway. I am going to try to take a nap today even with the three kids at home. I will coerce them into watching a movie with me in bed and I will guilt-free close my eyes and dream. I am going to eat chocolate for lunch and maybe again for dinner. I am going to neglect the laundry for one more day and just BE here with me and my feelings.
* I would love to share your motherhood/baby loss tattoos on a Babble post. If you have a photo you’d like to share please email me accustomedchaos(@)gmail.com with your name, photos, meaning of tattoo and a link you would like back (twitter, blog etc). Thank you! *
| check out today’s post on Being Pregnant Blog:Should There Be a Cut Off Age to Motherhood? |
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Twitter: iampregzilla
November 9, 2011 at 11:55 am
Oh my goodness I am so sorry for your loss! My thoughts are with you, and I am sending lots of love and hugs your way! You are so strong, mama! Take it easy today, and be good to yourself. Chocolate for lunch and dinner sounds like a good idea. Take a nice hot bath, too!
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Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 9, 2011 at 2:40 pm
Thank you so much Nadia. I am doing my best to take it easy on myself today. xxo
Touching and honest. Thanks for sharing your intimate thoughts. Found you through NaBloPoMo. Sending a virtual hug.
Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 9, 2011 at 2:41 pm
Thank you Tia – I appreciate your hug!
Twitter: mamachickx4
November 9, 2011 at 1:05 pm
Sending you a *shoulder to lay your head on and a huge hug* from Michigan.
Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 9, 2011 at 2:41 pm
Thank you Keva for your support xxo
Twitter: LaceyJane
November 9, 2011 at 1:38 pm
chocolate is the best idea. *hugs*
Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 9, 2011 at 2:41 pm
totally the best idea! I will be eating my share today. thank you Lacey Jane
Twitter: MommyMoments
November 9, 2011 at 4:06 pm
I have nothing profound to say and even if I did I doubt it would take away any of what you are feeling right now. What I can say is that I am constantly in awe over the love you have for Triton and if every mother around the world had the same love for their children (whether living on earth or only in our hearts) the world would be a far better place.
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Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 10, 2011 at 9:22 am
I (HEART) you Maija. Thank you !
Twitter: meditating_mom
November 9, 2011 at 7:17 pm
Take care of yourself today and don’t feel guilty about it. You deserve it. Sending you love.
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Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 10, 2011 at 9:25 am
Thank you so much Alyson
I can’t pretend to have the right words to say, but are there really any right words? Just know that you’re cared about and in my thoughts.
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Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 10, 2011 at 9:26 am
Thank you blueviolet – means a lot to me
Twitter: wvmommy11
November 10, 2011 at 9:12 am
I hope your day went as smoothly as it could have. I had miscarriages inbetween my boys and I still remember the due dates every year. I like the chocolate for lunch and dinner idea
Thanks for commenting on my blog, following you now.
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Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 10, 2011 at 9:29 am
Thank you Frugal. Yesterday was hard but i got through it thanks to all the support xxo
Twitter: daddyrunsalot
November 10, 2011 at 9:51 am
*hugs* Devan . . . Triton knows he’s loved.
Hope the nap was everything you needed.
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Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 10, 2011 at 11:47 am
Thank you so much John – means a lot to me
Twitter: lemondroppie
November 10, 2011 at 2:37 pm
I’m so sorry for your losses. Nothing can take away the grief, but I pray that time will numb the pain. Glad you were able to have a little time for yourself; it is much deserved!
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Twitter: AccustomedChaos
November 10, 2011 at 2:51 pm
Thank you Finny Marie. I appreciate your kind words!
I have tears in my eyes after reading this… I’m right there with you. I’ve had four due dates that never were. It breaks my heart that anyone has to go through this. Sending many hugs your way. xoxo
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